you are in these bones, but they are not you.

  • You asshole. You, asshole.

    You asshole. You, asshole.

    Feet planted in your demanding: all the ego of the universe buried like a hatchet in the back of your humanity. The mockery you wield is an ungainly weapon against your transparency, the guts you spill in this war on intimacy your own. Your offensive salvo, like anger, a secondary response to the shiny, twisted… Read more

  • idyll thoughts

    idyll thoughts

    The pills will shut me down for now, a silence that this monstrous clawing has come to require. I am lightfooted and sure-eyed, smile a scalpel paring the excess from the path entreating my footsteps, but right now the building in my chest is in a state of collapse. I know this is necessary if… Read more

  • denials

    denials

    Doesn’t register as an addiction, not sweating or shaking. Easy to mistake for a kind of cabin fever- your second wind of the long season, just a couple thousand ants suddenly swarming your blood. And then the impulse, the bolt through your chest catching its teeth in your spine and you’re so tense under this… Read more

  • Itch

    Itch

    You’re a pressure against my skin- I crawl to you, dragging myself slow, breasts and belly to the dirt of this want: animal hungry, predator steady. Fingers dug into the softest parts- your ecstatic mouth open tongue stroking the grip I’ve got on your control, control yourself, that steady measure, I’m coming for you. I’m… Read more

  • Pyrrhic

    Pyrrhic

    I loved her. I loved her more than I knew how to love myself and all I’ve left is this afterlife memory of sensations, a cobbled dream of her creation. She is marble and concrete and crushed magnolia petals, bent and rusted rebar wrapped in silk and soft cotton, her movement echoing the groaning of… Read more

  • let me tear it apart. you have to.

    let me tear it apart. you have to.

    I don’t know how to be anything but selfish so when I tell you I’m done and it’s the most bitter angry self-centered thing you’ve ever seen I need you to understand that I’m leaving. That you’re better off without me. That this isn’t the first time I’ve gone through these motions that I’ve tried… Read more

let me sow that i may reap